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Tuesday, 08 September 2009

  • Whatever Happened to Xanga

    It's impossible to keep up with every social networking system out there. I won't get a Twitter unless I become radically popular. There's just too many logins and "things" to update all the time. Xanga has escaped me for quite awhile now. Given the the fact that I've had nothing to just write about or maybe because I simply didn't feel like it.

    There's something on my contact. That's really exciting, I know. But there is.

    I went for a walk Friday night, in the dark. But it's pretty sweet since our road is closed, so walking down the street, listening to my iPod and dancing. Pretty cool.

    Looking for a car is fun, not hearing back from dealers is not. cars....eBay...weird to me, but doable I suppose. I never really thought of eBay as a place to buy cars. But actually it would be a really good place to look for a house if you were moving somewhere.

    Life is fun and busy. Like, there's work, but everyone's got to do it, so why not love it? America and the world require people to have money to obtain things. Could you imagine bartering? I'd kind of like to go back to that. You'd still have to work, but then what you do with your hands is actually what gets you essentials. There's no way to get out of working because of the surroundings we're in. Why not work @ it with all you have? God gave you hands to use no matter what the circumstances, give it your all. I've found those "tasks" we have to do are a lot better when you are reminded who you really "work" for.

Friday, 17 April 2009

  • Currently
    Defying Gravity
    By Keith Urban
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    Beauty

    What an absolutely fantastic world we live in! It's just marvelous how nature comes to life when the sun comes out and the temperature rises. The "dead of winter" really is what it says it is. I'm in awe of our world. Every single part of it and not just when it gets warmer. When you take into account how many different places there are to go in the world and all the new and exciting things there are to see, it really puts you in awe of the Creator. I haven't even been to a sixteenth of them yet. There are so many different states, let alone the number of countries there are. I want to see it all! I want to climb the mountains out west, snowboard the slopes in Denver, taste the coffee of Seattle, ride a horse in Oklahoma, round up some cattle in Texas, see the palm trees in California, travel to Arizona just to see a cactus. And that's just here in the states. The furthest I've been out of the country is Canada. I want to see Italy and Rome, Mexico, Africa, Paris, and Australia!!

    I simply can't wait to be in Nashville. I don't think there's any other place in the world I could want to live. Of course, I haven't been many places either. But that's the way Tennessee is for me, it makes me not want to find any place better. I don't really think there is a better place. The scenery down there is absolutely breathtaking. The mountains and the wild life. Not to mention Nashville being the heart of music. Being able to go to CMA Fest EVERY year!!! I might just not know how to handle that. Oh, and I can't wait to meet to new writers and musicians!

    So I'm basically working ALL weekend...and I'm perfectly okay wit that. Content actually. I may or may not be playing a show with 2 very amazing people April 24th @ The Coffee Gallery. I also may or may not be thinking you should come....

Tuesday, 03 March 2009

  • Currently
    Fearless
    By Taylor Swift
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    I Feel Better

    Warning: This post has potential to not make sense to you at all. It's perfectly okay, because I 100% guarantee you that it has nothing to do with you.

    I am sick and tired of being asked what's going on or what's happening with me and then NOT being listened to. If someone doesn't care, then DON'T ask. Bottom line. Stop being fake and not caring. It's like you get my hopes up for the 2 minutes that you listen, and then you just CRUSH them. I'm a stupid stupid human, and I ALWAYS think things will be different when they won't Ug! I don't know WHY I put myself through this over and over and over and over again. I cannot do this anymore. The only thing I can figure is that I need someone to fill that void. Everything I want you to be, I need someone else to be. I need to fill the void that you've left in my life, in my heart. Um...I just wrote something:

    I open up so willingly even when I know it's wrong
    I lay my heart out on the line
    But I should know by now
    That every time I do I'll only be disappointed
    Once more, maybe it will be different this time
    I'll give it another shot because I need this
    I need someone to hear me and know my thoughts
    To listen unconditionally and love who I am
    But this time it won't happen because you aren't the one

    Everything I want you to be, I need someone else to be
    I need to fill the void that you've left in my life, in my heart
    If only I had someone to call when I'm down
    To tell my deepest thoughts and never regret a moment
    I need this, I need this to breathe in and breathe out
    Maybe someday you'll see the pain you've caused
    I hope, but I doubt that you'll change your mind
    This is pointless to me because I'm wasting my time

    I'm sick and tired of hearing that you love me
    When your actions speak louder than your mouth
    If you really cared, then you'd be there
    Every time I turn around, you've turned the other way
    You tell me that you hear me, but you don't listen at all
    I only trust so many times before you're nothing at all
    I think we've reached the end, so take it as you will
    I've taken all you bullets, now just leave me alone

    I feel I'm about to break into a million pieces
    I'm done and I'm through with ever ever trusting you
    The time has come to go our separate ways
    Because every time we talk it always ends this way
    After faking a thousand smiles, it's time for me to be real
    You make me sad, you leave me out to dry
    If you looked in my eyes you'd see how much I cry
    I'll send a letter, then maybe you'll get it

    If I had someone who listen to me regardless of what was going on, well, that's not true. I have lots of people who do that. They just aren't accessible on a day to day basis. The ones that are, that I see all the time apparently have fallen out of touch with me. For some reason, something must have happened over the past 12 months to make them care less and less for my presence in their lives. Honestly, it's been awhile since I fully felt the kindness I used to feel. I have this human void in my life clearly. Maybe I should find myself a husband. No, no. That's not it. Clearly if I lived with someone, like a roommate, things would be different. It's even easier to just talk to my cat, honestly. I cannot keep setting myself up for disaster. That's the one thing that I am totally and completely sure of. It needs to stop and I need to be done with it. Something about the whole situation doesn't even seem natural to me, even as relationships go. If something seems wrong with someone you care about, would someone think to ask and then be prepared to discuss and work through it?? Honestly, how can you look at someone, know something is wrong and then just ignore it?? That just seems extremely weird and unhealthy. People are not supposed to live lives unhappy in their current situations and when they are, everything possible should be done to change that. This is the first time I've ever been in a relationship where my feelings are totally and completely disregarded and dismantled. I am DONE with this. Have you ever heard of unhealthy relationships? I'm in one, one that I desperately need to get out of. So goodbye. I will not take anymore unwanted bruises. From now on, I won't tell you anything unless I think you need to know, which doesn't leave much.

    I must listen to music now. For it is my therapy. Hmmm...Taylor.

Thursday, 26 February 2009

  • Overdue- A Tuesday Unlike The Others

    Tuesday morning I didn't wake up with the notion that it would be any different than other Tuesdays, oh but it was. I went to work at the normal 8 a.m. time. Everything, other than having a LONG list of things to do, was normal. Then the phone rang. It was the city. She asked if we had a toilet that was having problems last month. And I said "why yes we did." "Well that explains it then. Oh, sorry. I was just noticing your water bill was extremely high compared to most months. I mean, people are pretty consistent with their water bill. I thought maybe there was something wrong with your meter." "Nope. We had a toilet that kept running for more than one reason." "Yeah, those will kill you. Alright, well you used about "xxxxx" gallons, so..." "Wow! Really?!?! Well thanks for letting me know." "No problem. See ya." I had two options: 1) Tell the boss when she got back. 2) Wait until the water bill showed up for shock and awe. Either way, things like this are quite a blow. No one realized how much that racks up the bill, unless of course you spent a better part of your life in a hardware store remedying these things. I went with option 1, for two reasons: 1) She would find out either way, this way she knew it was coming. 2) If I failed to let her know they had at least called and warned us, she find out later. It wasn't like I was hiding anything. The bill will still be the same no matter when she found out. They weren't going to change it if she suddenly rushed back there and said it was a toilet problem. You still used the water, pay up.

    The boss was told when she came in. Mind you, I had never been asked to maintenance the toilet. Only her father, who claimed nothing was wrong with it. Every time I noticed it running, the float was getting stuck underneath the flapper. Solution: Modern toilets don't use the float. Why? Because it's ancient! If the fill valve is replaced, no float, no float/flapper issue. Another problem was the tension rod from the fill valve to the float being extremely bent. A never do this unless you want to reap the consequences move. Mind you, the brother already adjusted it and since then it hadn't kept running. But eventually the rod would just lower itself again. So after explaining what should've been done had someone asked me to do it my boss: "I have begged someone to replace the...fill valve. And NO ONE would. Everyone told me there was nothing wrong with it." Four problems with that statement: 1) I'm sure you didn't actually beg anyone. 2) Clearly, you stumbling over recalling the fill valve reassures me you're just repeating my terminology. 3) You didn't ask everyone and 4) if you had I'm pretty sure only one of them said nothing was wrong with it. This led to "something has to be done about it!!" It wasn't running anymore, but still, this was a good idea. She didn't want her father to do it because apparently he didn't think anything was wrong with it. That and he always wants something in return. Ever heard of charity?!?!? Therefore, I told her my brother would probably do it for a Mocha. She said: "Well why can't you do it??" Well, the truth is, I could. But I've gotten so used to people not asking me to do things because I'm "too young", that I forgot I'm 21 and I didn't even consider myself a candidate. Change out the inside of a toilet it is!! Of course, she wanted me to explain everything so she understood how the whole thing worked. I'm pretty sure it went over her head. Because she interrupted and said "well how long will it take you?" "An hour, hour and a half max." "Okay, so what do you need to...oh I don't know. Do what you have to." After a 15 minute trip to the store. I was back. And 20 minutes later, the toilet was better than new. Let me tell you, pressure sensitive fill valves are remarkable and very compact. Me like! "Man I have to pee again." "Oh good because I want to make sure the water level is set right." "Wait, you're done?!?" "Yes." "No...really. Stop joking. How long until I can pee?" "Well however long it takes you to walk from hear o the bathroom. Get yourself situat--oh, you know the rest. But do me a favor: take the lid off the back of the tank because I want to know how much water it uses." "Uh....Amanda...um...you're not--" "NO!! No, no, no, no, no. I am NOT going in there with you! YOU tell ME how much water goes out of the tank." Apparently the chain got stuck underneath the flapper. I'd never had it do that to me before, but I guess it happened to her all the time. Easily fixable- adjust the chain tension. But seriously?!? I had to sit over the tank for 5 minutes while my boss kept demonstrating over and over and over and OVER how it does it. Every time I went to grab the chain to adjust it, she would grab the flapper and flip it up saying "people must just slam the level down and it makes this thing (?!?! flapper much??) fly up and the chain goes under and gets stuck and holds the flapper up!!" It's called water pressure. It pushes down on the flapper, so to make the flapper go up, a little force MUST be exerted. Haha! She was driving me insane! I came back later and adjusted the chain...to a tee, seriously. Tuesday-I was a plumber.

    Five minutes later, the door opened pretty big on a religious discussion. It started when a regular customer came in after I was walking out of the bathroom from adjusting the chain. The whole lent discussion came up. Which brought up what he was sacrificing. And he went into detail about how it was important for him to give up something important to him. If it wasn't important, then it's not a sacrifice. I said that my boss should give up Sunday mornings at home and come to church with me. That's really what got into it. I first said she should give up Sunday mornings at home. And she didn't get it. Thought I was speaking in some code word/phrase. So after many topic changes and many "are you speaking in code again?" questions later. I just said "you should come to church with me." Then it was a back and forth thing. Not so much that we were arguing, but just what she thought. And what the truth was. That's why I'm really digging LOST right now and all of its religious references. And it doesn't only reference one belief either. It's a good topic starter. I don't think she realizes how many people probably think about her and her husband on a weekly if not daily basis. I'm not expecting a Bible to club her on the way to the back door at 6 a.m. in the morning. But if that's what it took, then I'm surely not going to stop God from doing it.

    P.S. Apparently I was into organization, lots of numbered lists/points.

Monday, 23 February 2009

  • Currently
    Life Left to Go
    By Safetysuit
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    Girls Night, Sunday!

    What a weekend. Seriously!

    First, yesterday was pretty amazing. Basically the girls were going out to The Flying Bean to chill. So I went. And while there, heard word that apparently some wanted to see a movie which quickly turned into all of us wanting to see a movie. So while planning the movie, we decided we must force Heather to get off work and join us. We drove to Johnny Rockets and literally ran past the windows 3 or 4 times freezing our butts off trying to get her attention since they were already closed and cleaning up. So I thought writing a note, running up to the window, knocking on the glass, and having her say yes or no was a good idea. Apparently, it was. Heather complied and we all had a joyous time. Seriously, I have not gone out with some many awesome girls at a time in a long time. We did it for Singles Awareness Day, but see even that had stipulations: must be single, or a gay guy I guess. Then we pretty much talked for an hour afterwards. I swear girls like us can talk forever. Or at least long enough to get 3 phone calls from the parental unit. Okay, that time seriously LOST was on and Heather and I only talked for 2 hours. Can you blame us?

    Today, which is technically Monday now that it's after 12:30 a.m. but I'm really talking about Sunday since I haven't actually gone to bed only napped, anyway: church. It was marvelous!! Everything about it was great. Andrew, Heather, and I played all day though! Church, then practice at 1 p.m., then we played for Feed The Hungry at a church in Toledo. Let me tell you, I've never played at this even before and DID NOT realize they do this EVERY Sunday night. They don't have an actual church that meets there on Sunday morning, it's just the night service. Granted, it was the oldest sound equipment since TCS, but it was just the three of us doing an acoustic set. It was the most tremendous thing. All of these homeless people...worshiping! You could actually hear them singing really loud, which is kind of pathetic when you think about people who have it good and never worship in church. And I was so proud of Heather for just taking the lead and catching me off guard. I never expected her to say something in the middle of the set, but I loved that she did. I just love how well we play together. It's like God fit us in this perfectly unique path of life where we would find each other and our talents would fit together. It's kind of creepy actually since we aren't even from the same area. And the woman who sang after us. She may have been rather off key, but she was pouring her heart into it and all these people were verbally offering encouragement. It's not every day people encourage you, let alone when you're performing. It really goes to prove that when you have nothing, you realize how truly grateful you are for the little things. Definitely made me wish other people could've seen it all through my eyes while it happened. I mean, I'm not exactly on The Truman Show...


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  • Music is my life. I love so many bands. My free time is spent playing music and writing songs. I've played guitar for a long time, and then drums and bass. I love my friends to death. God is the most amazing thing that ever happened to me.

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